I woke up that Saturday morning confused if I had taken my pills during the night or not. I guess that’s a good sign, since I wasn’t desperate to take them. I took a shower and ended up getting hot and sick in the shower! That hasn’t happened in a while, and hasn’t happened since. Jon and I decided to go to his parents house to grill out since we couldn’t do much other 4th of July celebrating. This was my first trip out – we stopped by the grocery store and the liquor store! I also put real clothes on!

Sunday and Monday were non-eventful. We went to church Sunday morning and I kept nodding off. I blame the dimmed lights and acoustic music. I came home and took a 4 hour nap. Monday, my very pregnant friend Lindsey brought me lunch and we watched Frozen. My wonderful mother-in-law also came over and pulled our horrible weeds. Today was the first day I skipped a nap and didn’t even feel exhausted! I accidentally missed a pain med dose and felt fine. I started weaning down to 1 pill if I can tolerate it, sometimes 1.5.

Tuesday-Thursday my sister was here. We went to the mall and she pushed me in a wheelchair. Went out for brunch. Ran errands at Target and the grocery. Now that my energy is back, I really love going out places and doing things.

Friday might have been my hardest day yet. I can’t pinpoint exactly what it was, aside from the fact I had been extremely active the few days prior. It was my first day all alone. I cried immediately as Jon left and on and off the rest of the day. I started having some muscle spasms that would jolt my body and make me cry. Getting around was more difficult because of the pain I was in. Luckily I woke up Saturday and was back to normal. Saturday and Sunday were find pain-wise. I’m trying to take only 1 pain pill, and thinking about trying 1/2 a pill. I’m worried what I’ll feel with nothing to protect me, though I’m ready to move back into my alcohol-drinking lifestyle. Does that sound horrible? Oh well. I also hope to be cleared to drive at my doc appointment on the 21st.

I am flying to Holland tomorrow to hang out with my family while my grandma slowly slips away. I am sad to be losing her, and I am so sad for my mother, losing her mom somewhat unexpectedly, although she has been deteriorating over the past several months. I’m glad to have this time off work that I can go and be with them, though I’m worried to travel alone. Wish me luck.